In the end, there was the beginning.

When friends first gifted me this domain name, I knew exactly what I wanted for it.
We were already on our IVF journey, and I was learning that being in our home, with my husband and dog and our soon to be family was all I wanted. Our little bubble embryo would complete our bubble life.

Nine years on, and we’re not doing anymore IVF. It didn’t have the happy ending we wanted, but that doesn’t mean our ending can’t be happy. I’m still working through it all, and trying every day to figure out what I want out of life, now the life I thought I was going to have isn’t going to be.
I’m saying “I” a lot because this is my brain – I can’t speak for my husband. One of our skills is our communication with each other, but still, his part in this chapter of our life is his story to tell, not mine.

So, I shall try and work through this story bit by bit and process it as I go. I’m going to type, and then I’m going to evaluate what I’ve written and with my therapist head on and work out what I need to work on next.